My mom passed away

Hi,everyone! I know it's been 5 months I haven't write anything which I made a promise to myself I will write everything but I didn't. Phew, where should I start?

My mom passed away on my hubby's birthday 28 September at 2.30 am ish. We didn't know the exact time because all of us are sleeping. My dad, grandma and my sister were sleeping with my mom that night. I was sleeping in my room, exhausted. Suddenly my sister came into my room crying loudly saying "mak dah sekda,in" (she's gone) :( I didn't kiss her before I go to sleep that night. I kissed her before I put Adam and Orked to sleep earlier. Her skin was still warm. My grandma and I were the last person with her that morning. I still can talk to her that morning, gave her some foods and drink. Then, I recited Yasin for her until she fell asleep. She never opens her eyes later until her last breath. It was really heartbreaking moment for me.

And a little self reminder for myself and women out there, PLEASE check your breast, GO TO SEE DOCTOR and MAKE a regular check up at your clinic. If you have cancer, please immediately treat it. Don't keep it as a secret. NEVER. My mom was at stage 4 when we went to the hospital for MRI and X-ray, and they found something in my mom's breast. Of course, WE DIDN'T KNOW. She never told us about it. Not even a hint. Why mom? :(

Thank you for everyone who stop by at my house and for the wishes,doas for my family and I. I knew, this time will come but I guess I wasn't ready to let my mom go...