Farah Jasenu

First, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir & Batin everyone! The day that we love so much every year after our own birthday, I guess. Hehe. I love raya, not only we get to wear pretty kurungs and show it off (well sorta) but I get to meet up with my dear bestfriend, eat lemangs ketupats, cake and drink lots of air gas (carbonated drinks). Well, we used to get angpaus too but as we grew older well in my case I'm married with two kids goodbye angpau.  I still don't get tooooo excited for raya as I'm turning older and older, but I still want to raya but if you're having pantang raya you'll never feel the raya vibes. Ever. I've told my husband, I don't want give birth on raya or puasa ever. Period. Bammmmm! Things that you never wanted to happen just happen. How magical is that? You just can't plan everything, you have to suck it up and move on. I still can eat those ayam masak merah, daging masak kicap and all except for lemangs, puluts, ketup...

I'm officially turning to 24 today! Alhamdulillah I'm grateful to be alive being with my two kids Adam Irfan & Orked Mariam, with hubby (who still no birthday wish or surprise this year like last year pfft im so pissed pfft), parents, family & my dearest friends. Thank you for the wishes you guys :) As much as I'm grateful for today, I'm still in my pantang days. It's been only 13 days since I gave birth to Orked. I want to go out. I want to #sungkeiwithlove with hubby too. Hehe. I want to celebrate my birthday with my favourite food. I want ais kacang. I want to eat bongkol. Most of all I want to go out from the house and shopping! I need to go shopping. I need to buy new clothes for Orked. She needs new clothes and so do mommy. hehe. It is sucks to be in pantang during Ramadhan. I wish this would be the last one. 

It's been a week since I gave birth to my daughter, Orked Mariam. I have always wanted a baby girl. I'm so obsessed with baby girls. Alhamdulillah, I have my own mini me. It started with a tiny period cramps on that Wednesday night. Well, I did feel the period cramps  two days earlier. Yes, still remember that feeling though I haven't been on period for 9 months. I knew how it feels. I keep on checking for the sign whether I should go to the hospital since Monday. It's Ramadhan Mubarak for us Muslim. So, my goal is to eat as much as I want and satisfy my whole craving. I did. I went to eight bazaar for three days straight with hubby. I got to eat one of my favourite's  kuih, kuih bongkol! :)  So,back with those period cramps moment. Hubby and I watched Batman on hbo that night. Then I wanted to go to sleep and went straight to the toilet. The red auntie was there! I was totally blank. I didn't know what to do, so I called my sister. She told me to go to...

Happy Mother's Day to all wonder women in the world! I know, being a mom is not easy, it's a full time job, it's a 24-7 job with no salary, no holiday and it's not about yourself anymore. Sometimes I miss the old me (minus the attitude) I mean having my time alone and actually enjoy without worrying about your child in your mind. Pfft. I guess it's a natural thing for us mommies. You really want to have your moment but you still worrying sick about your chores, hubby and child. I guess women love to overthinking. *sigh* So, the second baby is on his/her way. Yes, I didn't know the sex yet, since he/she is so malu to show her/himself. So I should name him/her Baby X at the moment. Everyone would guess it's a girl, even my doctor said to me the other day prolly is a girl. I want a girl so bad, but you can never ask too much because you will end up the opposite thing you want. *sigh* Whatever it is all I want is a healthy baby. That's all.  ...

It's the last day of March for 2016, the last year for Adam to be the one and only child, the last year to celebrate his birthday as spoiled brat and I am not ready to move on with the fact that I'm going to have a second baby next June!  ♥ It's kind of emotional to know that next year there will be Baby  X to celebrate Adam's birthday together. I swear I just want only ONE child because I want to spoil him, just him. Alone. Selfish? I am. Maybe I'm so scared that I'll never treat Adam like I used to, I'm so worried that I have no time for him, I'm terrified that I might not spend so much time like we used to and I'm not good in spreading the love for three person in one time. Hahaha. I did tell my hubby once, I love my son more than I'll love him. He is my first love. He's my first baby. He really changes me from the person I used to be. I'm so grateful Adam is my son. I'm really proud of this five years old boy. He's so s...

Bismillah.. So here it goes. Some of you guys might get my hint or maybe you guys are being too genius enough to know or I'm the one that can't shut my lips properly but I did my best.. I'm expecting my second child :) (Psst, I wrote this post about a month ago, so I think everyone know that I am expecting now. Haha) It's almost seven months now. It's a quite challenge for me during this pregnancy because it's been too long, five years is a long time to have a new baby, new chapter, new human being and I kinda forget what to do's and don'ts during pregnancy. I didn't plan to write every month check ups since nobody know I am preggy. It feels like I'm having my first baby all over again. Please help me, I am totally clueless this time around. During this second time,it's really hard. Let's see what have I have been doing for the whole month of March. * I have more than three clinic visit * I've gained 5kgs in one mon...

Here I am sitting on the swing trying  to do something than usual playtime with Adam. Or drinking coffee and tea at my Grandma's. Adam is out with his dad, obviously I'm all alone to do everything I want. But mehhh, I don't  have anything to do. I really don't know what to do besides eating and sleeping when I'm alone. I usually watched my old favourite movies early in the morning, after I do some house chores. Then, pick up Adam at noon, when I'm too tired I will have my nap in the evening. I woke up early everyday bcos I have to dressing my mom first thing in the morning. Then, the usual routine, make some breakfast, pack for Adam's foodie, then sometimes I send him to the school. The typical housewife routine right? I bet you guys are yawning while reading this. Hehe. One thing for  sure, when Adam is not at home or with me, I'll be like "Adam, can you eat quickly?" "can you play with those quietly, mommy needs to sleep" ...