Farah Jasenu

Hello there! I have been abandoning my blog for a year. I was coping with the loss of my mother and my grandmother. After 99 days my mom died, my grandmother passed away on 4 January 2017. Last year was everything about family for me. I have been with my family and my in law almost all the time. Then, I'm having my own personal problem. My mother in law was diagnosed with breast cancer too. Just like my mother. She is still recovering. She is still in the stage one. I hope she will get better than ever. Yes, too much for me for last year, I was really wanting to move forward to the next chapter. On the bright side, my son Adam is turning to 7 years old this year! It's been seven freaking years since I gave birth to him. I felt it was a year ago... still can remember the contraction pain and the push-your-baby-out moment. It was so embarrassing! Hubby and I were so confusing about the new chapter of Adam. We even late for the school registration few months ago. Thank Go...

Hi there. It's the last day of 2016. It's the end of the year. ONE freaking year has passed by so quickly! It's been one hell of roller coaster ride this year.  I was still struggling for my pregnancy early this year. I still can't accept the awkwardness of being a pregnant mom. I'm literally felt like a potato and penguin. I was so huge and gained almost 10kgs. Phew. Now, I'm still struggling with my weight. I was 48-49 kgs after I gave birth to Adam and the past five years before I got pregnant with Orked. I'm still at the 50's kgs. Hish. Orked Mariam is 6 months old this month, She is so strong that she can pull her head so high whenever she looks at the bold colours, Didi & Friends's song, any sound of vacuum, blender etc and of course ME! Her face is like saying "mommy is here. Pick me up, please?" She still at the stage trying to grab any toys or Astro remote control nearby, but still can't get them. So, she will ...

Hi,everyone! I know it's been 5 months I haven't write anything which I made a promise to myself I will write everything but I didn't. Phew, where should I start? My mom passed away on my hubby's birthday 28 September at 2.30 am ish. We didn't know the exact time because all of us are sleeping. My dad, grandma and my sister were sleeping with my mom that night. I was sleeping in my room, exhausted. Suddenly my sister came into my room crying loudly saying "mak dah sekda,in" (she's gone) :( I didn't kiss her before I go to sleep that night. I kissed her before I put Adam and Orked to sleep earlier. Her skin was still warm. My grandma and I were the last person with her that morning. I still can talk to her that morning, gave her some foods and drink. Then, I recited Yasin for her until she fell asleep. She never opens her eyes later until her last breath. It was really heartbreaking moment for me. And a little self reminder for myself and w...

First, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir & Batin everyone! The day that we love so much every year after our own birthday, I guess. Hehe. I love raya, not only we get to wear pretty kurungs and show it off (well sorta) but I get to meet up with my dear bestfriend, eat lemangs ketupats, cake and drink lots of air gas (carbonated drinks). Well, we used to get angpaus too but as we grew older well in my case I'm married with two kids goodbye angpau.  I still don't get tooooo excited for raya as I'm turning older and older, but I still want to raya but if you're having pantang raya you'll never feel the raya vibes. Ever. I've told my husband, I don't want give birth on raya or puasa ever. Period. Bammmmm! Things that you never wanted to happen just happen. How magical is that? You just can't plan everything, you have to suck it up and move on. I still can eat those ayam masak merah, daging masak kicap and all except for lemangs, puluts, ketup...

I'm officially turning to 24 today! Alhamdulillah I'm grateful to be alive being with my two kids Adam Irfan & Orked Mariam, with hubby (who still no birthday wish or surprise this year like last year pfft im so pissed pfft), parents, family & my dearest friends. Thank you for the wishes you guys :) As much as I'm grateful for today, I'm still in my pantang days. It's been only 13 days since I gave birth to Orked. I want to go out. I want to #sungkeiwithlove with hubby too. Hehe. I want to celebrate my birthday with my favourite food. I want ais kacang. I want to eat bongkol. Most of all I want to go out from the house and shopping! I need to go shopping. I need to buy new clothes for Orked. She needs new clothes and so do mommy. hehe. It is sucks to be in pantang during Ramadhan. I wish this would be the last one. 

It's been a week since I gave birth to my daughter, Orked Mariam. I have always wanted a baby girl. I'm so obsessed with baby girls. Alhamdulillah, I have my own mini me. It started with a tiny period cramps on that Wednesday night. Well, I did feel the period cramps  two days earlier. Yes, still remember that feeling though I haven't been on period for 9 months. I knew how it feels. I keep on checking for the sign whether I should go to the hospital since Monday. It's Ramadhan Mubarak for us Muslim. So, my goal is to eat as much as I want and satisfy my whole craving. I did. I went to eight bazaar for three days straight with hubby. I got to eat one of my favourite's  kuih, kuih bongkol! :)  So,back with those period cramps moment. Hubby and I watched Batman on hbo that night. Then I wanted to go to sleep and went straight to the toilet. The red auntie was there! I was totally blank. I didn't know what to do, so I called my sister. She told me to go to...

Happy Mother's Day to all wonder women in the world! I know, being a mom is not easy, it's a full time job, it's a 24-7 job with no salary, no holiday and it's not about yourself anymore. Sometimes I miss the old me (minus the attitude) I mean having my time alone and actually enjoy without worrying about your child in your mind. Pfft. I guess it's a natural thing for us mommies. You really want to have your moment but you still worrying sick about your chores, hubby and child. I guess women love to overthinking. *sigh* So, the second baby is on his/her way. Yes, I didn't know the sex yet, since he/she is so malu to show her/himself. So I should name him/her Baby X at the moment. Everyone would guess it's a girl, even my doctor said to me the other day prolly is a girl. I want a girl so bad, but you can never ask too much because you will end up the opposite thing you want. *sigh* Whatever it is all I want is a healthy baby. That's all.  ...

It's the last day of March for 2016, the last year for Adam to be the one and only child, the last year to celebrate his birthday as spoiled brat and I am not ready to move on with the fact that I'm going to have a second baby next June!  ♥ It's kind of emotional to know that next year there will be Baby  X to celebrate Adam's birthday together. I swear I just want only ONE child because I want to spoil him, just him. Alone. Selfish? I am. Maybe I'm so scared that I'll never treat Adam like I used to, I'm so worried that I have no time for him, I'm terrified that I might not spend so much time like we used to and I'm not good in spreading the love for three person in one time. Hahaha. I did tell my hubby once, I love my son more than I'll love him. He is my first love. He's my first baby. He really changes me from the person I used to be. I'm so grateful Adam is my son. I'm really proud of this five years old boy. He's so s...

Bismillah.. So here it goes. Some of you guys might get my hint or maybe you guys are being too genius enough to know or I'm the one that can't shut my lips properly but I did my best.. I'm expecting my second child :) (Psst, I wrote this post about a month ago, so I think everyone know that I am expecting now. Haha) It's almost seven months now. It's a quite challenge for me during this pregnancy because it's been too long, five years is a long time to have a new baby, new chapter, new human being and I kinda forget what to do's and don'ts during pregnancy. I didn't plan to write every month check ups since nobody know I am preggy. It feels like I'm having my first baby all over again. Please help me, I am totally clueless this time around. During this second time,it's really hard. Let's see what have I have been doing for the whole month of March. * I have more than three clinic visit * I've gained 5kgs in one mon...

Here I am sitting on the swing trying  to do something than usual playtime with Adam. Or drinking coffee and tea at my Grandma's. Adam is out with his dad, obviously I'm all alone to do everything I want. But mehhh, I don't  have anything to do. I really don't know what to do besides eating and sleeping when I'm alone. I usually watched my old favourite movies early in the morning, after I do some house chores. Then, pick up Adam at noon, when I'm too tired I will have my nap in the evening. I woke up early everyday bcos I have to dressing my mom first thing in the morning. Then, the usual routine, make some breakfast, pack for Adam's foodie, then sometimes I send him to the school. The typical housewife routine right? I bet you guys are yawning while reading this. Hehe. One thing for  sure, when Adam is not at home or with me, I'll be like "Adam, can you eat quickly?" "can you play with those quietly, mommy needs to sleep" ...

I remember clearly when I was bumped into her last year and she said to me that she is getting married! Well, she is now :)  She is one of my longest friends that I've known since primary school. Everyone knows her, who doesn't know Puteri? Seriously EVERYONE KNOWS HER. She is so famous back during our school times and a naughty one too ;) But she is a really good good friend,she is really nice if you're being nice to her. She is funny, very loud and talkative. She has the best gossip bucket,which I bet she know everybody business. Hehe. She is finally met the one and only for her. I've seen her heart has been broken so many times but she really handle it well. She will never do stupid things when it comes to love. When she love, she fells so hard. Fadlee is a good guy for her, I just know it. He will take a good are of our princess really well. I've never seen her look better than she looks now. I'm really happy for you guys! May Allah bless your marri...

It's our anniversary today! Happy anniversary, you! ♥ It's been ups and downs 7 years being together, from a clueless high school student and now still hubby and wifey. Hihi. It's the only clearer photo of us today. We still do our old tradition, eating Chocolate Indulgence at the Secret Recipe every year. We never missed for it. It's the first thing we have been doing since our first date. So, it is a must to do list on the wedding anniversary and relationship anniversary (which I always forgot!) Thank you so much for having the highest level of patience for me. You always be there for me no matter what I did. Never, never and never say NO to me. You're really spoiled me and I'm beyond grateful having a partner like you. Hihi. Here's for our future and more happiness for us :) Be ready for June, baby ♥

It's never too late to wish everyone Happy New Year!  Happy 2016!  ♥ As you guys know that, I'm not a daily or a frequent blogger even though I'm trying to be one. I went blank everytime I try to write. I'm not a good writer, but I used to read my old post and remember things that I didn't even remember! All the good times, all the memories ahh how time really flies. So, I will try to write as often as I like or I want to starting from this year. One of new year's resolution eh? Hehe. So, I've been really under the weather for the past few months. Slowly but surely I am getting better. Almost be the normal me. You'll find out soon or I will tell you myself :)  Adam is turning 5 years old this year. The moment that I've been waiting for to let go Adam out of my sight bcos we spend too much time since he came to this world. We were both very close and clingy sometimes it's annoying. A good annoying of course. But he won't let you...

Few weeks ago, I won two passes of Greet and Meet with Ungu the famous band from Indonesia brought by Era.fm Kuching. I really want to meet them especially Pasha with my own eyes! I grew up listening to their songs well, during my high school years. I really love Pasha's voice and their song never fails me.  So, I did what I had to do. It was easy, you just have to listen to Era.fm (96.1 here in Kuching) and wait for the calling signal from Chopie or Osha and Afick. You have to sing one of Ungu's song to win two passes of Greet and Meet session and Rockzone passes for you and your friend. In my case, my crazy sisters. We went to Citadines Hotel around 11 am for Meet and Greet session with Ungu. Later that night we went to CityOne Megamall for the mini concert (THE BEST EVURRRRR) around 7 pm. The crowd was crazyyy! Everyone was singing along with Pasha, from Hampa Hatiku, Demi Waktu, Tercipta Untukku, Berteman Sepi, Aku Tahu, Kekasih Gela...

Hello! I'm currently back on my blog. Yay says no one. Pfft who cares? It's me with my mood. I'm like "oh I want to write something on my blog right now". It's been almost four months or less since my last update. I have had a really rough few months. First of all, my mom had a breast cancer and she is on her stage four. It's awful. Why did nobody see it coming? It's been really tough with my siblings and my dad. We fight almost everyday but we communicate better than ever now. We are closer than ever each day but we didn't show it to each other. We are in a better place right now. Thank you for all the prayer and wish for my mom. We really hope my mom is brave enough to fight for her life and our hopes too. Other than that, there's a lot had happen with me too. Good and few bad things. But right now, I can't even think any of it as I have to bake my brownies right now. I have to deliver it by 4 pm. So, bye for now! x

So, I haven't write anything for three months now. There's a lot happened during those three months. I would share but nahhhh, I don't really good at share my memories/stories to public though this is a blog that people usually write everythinggggggg. But I'm not. I get used not to share some on my stories since I have been deleting my older post. So keep it private and share some parts of it okay? Life has been treating me ups and downs. But I'm all good. I didn't see this phase coming to me but I've accepted it with open heart. Believe me, I didn't plan any of this. To those who involve with my life, I'm truly sorry. I've hurt so many people lately, and to be honest I don't even feel anything anymore. People says things to me but I'm just being emotionless. I don't want to pay too much attention that drains my energy. I'm staying to stay calm though I'm smiling in my Instagram photo. I'm not sad anymore, I'm not...

Well, well someone is turning to four today. Four years old, not a three years anymore. Time really flies so quick and I can't even breathe.  To my one and only child,  Happy birthday! You are a big boy now. You can you do everything by yourself. No need mommy 24 hours, but still at the end of the day you will always looking for me. Hehe. I hope you had a great time today. I've planned a picnic birthday for you. Simple but we really love it. I'm glad today we have spend the whole day with you. I hope in the future, this little things we did for you will be in your good memories with us. I hope you will always be in a good health, be a good listener (still working), hardworking and make us proud every single day in your life. May Allah protect in whatever you do now and in the future. You will always in my prayer, my love. Happy Adam Irfan Day! Both of us love you to infinity and beyond  ♥

I really don't know what's gotten into me lately. I've been stalking people's brownies on Instagram and Google. I can make one if I want to, but you see I have a thing with perfect brownies with crackly,shiny crust on top.  Don't they look sooooooo tempting? Life is so unfair. I used to get those crust but only on the middle of my brownies. One or two times when I make it without thinking too much.  Argh. If I 'm trying too hard, I won't get any crust. It's really confusing me since I'm zero knowledge in baking. The crust is so delicious, sweet and dreamy. I'm that obsessed with brownies.  Alhamdulillah, all of my customer love my Brownies. Yes, it's really good, I admitted that. I just want to improve more. I want to make something that people will acknowledge me. It's my brownies. It's kind like of signature of me. "Farah the best brownies in town"Oh, I wish. Hehe. My brownies recipe is really go...

I'd like to win a stay at Paresa Phuket on the The Luxe Nomad because I deserve to spend quality time with my loved ones in heaven of all heaven. I've generally know Phuket is a place famous for it's beautiful surroundings. But The Paresa Resort Phuket is a must place to stay for a real luxurious accommodation.  So, here I am trying my luck to win this getaway for my hubby and I. Since we got married we never have time for honeymoon. We both love to travel around the world, but we couldn't afford to do so. We love seeing people's culture,interesting places and have fun spending time together. We both love taking pictures. It's so insane we can take hundreds picture a day. I cannot imagine how many memories we will take while we at The Paresa Resort Phuket especially bringing my little one along. As for me, OOTD session in every corner of the place is a must.  Seriously, I wish I'm at Aqua Pool Suites while writing this post sitting and enjo...

Did you know that my husband has got a driving license recently? This should be so interesting if we were 18 years but we are five years older from that... Hehe. I should have been so relieve now because I've been waiting him to get one for so long.  Being a wife is one thing, but when you have to drive everywhere... I'm not complaining here but please you get me? It's tiring man! Now, it's his turn to drive me. But I just feel it's odd. It's really weird that now, I have to sit on the left side of the car. To be honest,I don't like it at all! I feel so stressed out watching him driving. He gives me goosebumps, heart attack and dizzy. Okay, that's exaggerating! Hehe. I have to act like a driving teacher. I'm completely not a patient person. I yell a lot. I give up easily to teach him. For me, it is a simplest thing to do on earth. It's just a driving you now, come on lah. But when I think about it again, hey this was me five years ago. S...