Thursday, July 14, 2016

Pantang Raya be like...

First, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir & Batin everyone! The day that we love so much every year after our own birthday, I guess. Hehe. I love raya, not only we get to wear pretty kurungs and show it off (well sorta) but I get to meet up with my dear bestfriend, eat lemangs ketupats, cake and drink lots of air gas (carbonated drinks). Well, we used to get angpaus too but as we grew older well in my case I'm married with two kids goodbye angpau. 

I still don't get tooooo excited for raya as I'm turning older and older, but I still want to raya but if you're having pantang raya you'll never feel the raya vibes. Ever. I've told my husband, I don't want give birth on raya or puasa ever. Period. Bammmmm! Things that you never wanted to happen just happen. How magical is that? You just can't plan everything, you have to suck it up and move on. I still can eat those ayam masak merah, daging masak kicap and all except for lemangs, puluts, ketupats and kuah kacang. Thank God it's been a month since I gave birth to Orked, so I get to skip the pantang rules. Psst, don't tell my mom.

I only get to visit both of my grandma's house, my in laws and tw of dear friend's open house. I'm sorry I didn't get to beraya-ing/ngabang/visiting your house (if you're reading this and happens to be my friend. Hehe) I will do it next year, Insyallah. I will buy more pretty baju raya, eat a lot and visiting my friends. Hopefully, no more pantang raya for me. 

The only decent photo of us.

I'm wearing Lubna in lilac minus the skirt and Juliet by Naelofar in nude sorbet.

I should start saving from now for next year's raya outfit. Hehe. Thank you for those who came and gave angpau to both of my children. I will make sure you will be his and her favourite uncle and auntie! :D

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Maaf Zahir & Batin 

Love, Me, my husband, Adam Irfan & Orked Mariam.

Tuesday, June 21, 2016

Twenty four

I'm officially turning to 24 today! Alhamdulillah I'm grateful to be alive being with my two kids Adam Irfan & Orked Mariam, with hubby (who still no birthday wish or surprise this year like last year pfft im so pissed pfft), parents, family & my dearest friends. Thank you for the wishes you guys :)

As much as I'm grateful for today, I'm still in my pantang days. It's been only 13 days since I gave birth to Orked. I want to go out. I want to #sungkeiwithlove with hubby too. Hehe. I want to celebrate my birthday with my favourite food. I want ais kacang. I want to eat bongkol. Most of all I want to go out from the house and shopping! I need to go shopping. I need to buy new clothes for Orked. She needs new clothes and so do mommy. hehe.

It is sucks to be in pantang during Ramadhan. I wish this would be the last one. 

Thursday, June 16, 2016

Dreams do come true

It's been a week since I gave birth to my daughter, Orked Mariam. I have always wanted a baby girl. I'm so obsessed with baby girls. Alhamdulillah, I have my own mini me.

It started with a tiny period cramps on that Wednesday night. Well, I did feel the period cramps  two days earlier. Yes, still remember that feeling though I haven't been on period for 9 months. I knew how it feels. I keep on checking for the sign whether I should go to the hospital since Monday. It's Ramadhan Mubarak for us Muslim. So, my goal is to eat as much as I want and satisfy my whole craving. I did. I went to eight bazaar for three days straight with hubby. I got to eat one of my favourite's  kuih, kuih bongkol! :) 

So,back with those period cramps moment. Hubby and I watched Batman on hbo that night. Then I wanted to go to sleep and went straight to the toilet. The red auntie was there! I was totally blank. I didn't know what to do, so I called my sister. She told me to go to the hospital immediately. Thank God, I was all ready with my bags. I went to the hospital that night with my second sister and hubby.

I didn't feel any contraction until the doctor did the cervical exam to check whether the cervix has begun to open or soften in preparation for birth. It was open for three centimeters. I had to spend the night in hospital though. So, I've changed my dress and try to get some sleep. It was 4.30 am ish in the morning that I would have woke up preparing sahur for my family but I'm stuck here in the bed at the hospital. I started to feel the contractions every half an hour, to 15 minutes to 10 minutes to 5 minutes and 2 minutes. I had forgotten the contraction pain. It's been five years. It was really,really, reallyyyyyyy painful. My friends always ask me "How does it feel? It is so bad?" I have no words to describe the right feeling when the contraction hits me. You feel like want to poop but you just can't. 

It was almost 7 am in the morning. I got the feeling,IT'S TIME! I HAVE TO GO TO THE LABOUR ROOM RIGHT NOW! It was awful! I really hate the contraction. I didn't get to lay on the labour bed so I gave birth at my ward bed. It was really fast. 20 minutes in the labour room I finally gave birth to my unkown gender baby. Little that I know, when the nurse give the baby to me and show the baby's private part, I was over the moon! It's a baby girl! 

7.09 AM

Welcome to our little family, Orked Mariam 

Sunday, May 8, 2016

Happy Mother's Day!

Happy Mother's Day to all wonder women in the world!

I know, being a mom is not easy, it's a full time job, it's a 24-7 job with no salary, no holiday and it's not about yourself anymore. Sometimes I miss the old me (minus the attitude) I mean having my time alone and actually enjoy without worrying about your child in your mind. Pfft. I guess it's a natural thing for us mommies. You really want to have your moment but you still worrying sick about your chores, hubby and child. I guess women love to overthinking. *sigh*

So, the second baby is on his/her way. Yes, I didn't know the sex yet, since he/she is so malu to show her/himself. So I should name him/her Baby X at the moment. Everyone would guess it's a girl, even my doctor said to me the other day prolly is a girl. I want a girl so bad, but you can never ask too much because you will end up the opposite thing you want. *sigh* Whatever it is all I want is a healthy baby. That's all. 

Here's to all wonder women in the world! I hope that you guys had a wonderful time with your loved ones today and forever 

Thursday, March 31, 2016

March Baby

It's the last day of March for 2016, the last year for Adam to be the one and only child, the last year to celebrate his birthday as spoiled brat and I am not ready to move on with the fact that I'm going to have a second baby next June! 

It's kind of emotional to know that next year there will be Baby  X to celebrate Adam's birthday together. I swear I just want only ONE child because I want to spoil him, just him. Alone. Selfish? I am. Maybe I'm so scared that I'll never treat Adam like I used to, I'm so worried that I have no time for him, I'm terrified that I might not spend so much time like we used to and I'm not good in spreading the love for three person in one time. Hahaha.

I did tell my hubby once, I love my son more than I'll love him. He is my first love. He's my first baby. He really changes me from the person I used to be. I'm so grateful Adam is my son. I'm really proud of this five years old boy. He's so special and close to my heart. Chessy? But I really get emotional when it comes to Adam. He is a special little man.

Last week, on his 5th birthday, we make the usual family gathering. No more the usual chocolate indulgence for him, since he's been asking for the Boboiboy cake. Pfft. But it was yummy though. As long as he's happy, I am happy. My sister even brought him one set of  Boboiboy's stationery set and meal set. He is beyond happy! :D

We did take him out for movie too. The boboiboy the movie of course. Now, he's starting to watch Boboiboy everyday. He doesn't want to watch Upin Ipin anymore. I like Upin Ipin more than the Boboiboy because Adam can learn to read doas, learn some manner and the story is closer to our daily life. Adam always want to try new things, playing the oldschool games and he can talks fluently in bahasa. All thanks to Upin Ipin :) Now, why am I talking about cartoons?

Anyway, you are five years old now baby boy. I love you just the way you are. Happy belated birthday, my love